Archive for June, 2010

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Aggressive Restructuring

June 29, 2010

I built a house
A house just for me
I spent my whole life building it
It kept me safe

I needed to get out
But I hadn’t built any doors
Or windows
My house was a cage

So I tore down the walls
Ripped off the roof
Carved up the floor
Until my house was gone

But the cage remained

I was trapped
In my imaginary house
My cage of the mind
Solitary confinement

So I made a key
To let others in
But I kept it
Hid it in my cage

And now I’m here
With a broken house
And a useless key
Just broken and useless

But I have an idea

I’ll build a new house
A house just for me
I might spend my whole life building it
But it won’t be a cage

I won’t need a key
To let others in
They’ll want to join me
In this new house

The house just for me
Will have rooms for them
Places for friends
And even for me

My new house won’t be a cage

It won’t be a prison
It won’t be a trap
It will be better
It will be a house

Some days the sun will shine on it
And some days the sky will pour down
But on all days it will be my house
And you’re welcome to come inside

-Vyperchild, who can’t help but be vague. For now. Sorry.

** Hello friendly note thingys, how I’ve missed you. We’ll see each other again soon, I’m sure.

To my friends, I’m sorry. You’ve given me so much and asked for so little. You owe me nothing and I owe you everything. I know I’m a pain, and a nuisance, and I whinge a lot. And I’m sorry for that. I haven’t been well. And I might not get better. But I’ll give it a try, because even if I can’t give you everything I wish I could, I can at least try to give you me. Thanks for sticking with me. It means more than I can say. **

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Withdraw

June 27, 2010

I give up.

-Vyperchild

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This is your pilot speaking

June 26, 2010

“Please do not panic, everything is under control.”

”Except for the spiralling. That is slightly out of our control.”

“We apologize for any inconvenience, have a nice flight.”

-Vyperchild, your reassuring pilot

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To-do list

June 23, 2010
  • EDIT: Get a haircut
  • Practice guitar
  • Set up guitar lessons
  • Buy electric guitar
  • Buy amplifier
  • Maybe get a synth
  • Write and re-write comic script
  • Practice drawing
  • Draw Dalek webcomic
  • Draw own webcomics
  • Write prose
  • Apply for more work hours
  • Go bowling
  • Go ice-skating
  • Join ice hockey team maybe
  • Buy more toys
  • Buy more CDs
  • Buy more clothes
  • EDIT: Buy comics that I promised I would
  • EDIT: Get a tattoo
  • Get out more
  • Talk to people
  • Stop being so touchy and shy
  • Stop whining
  • Stop being an asshole
  • Learn to dance :/

-Vyperchild

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Just there.

June 22, 2010

I don’t strive. I don’t achieve. I don’t inspire. I don’t live. I don’t love.

I don’t anything.

I’m just there.

Always just in the way. Tolerated.

-Vyperchild

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Dalek

June 16, 2010

Dalek

A sketch of one of the new Daleks I did a while ago. I figured I might as well post it here. I did a few others but this was the first one.

-Vyperchild

** Quite some time ago I posted lots of pictures drawn in MS Paint. I may start trying to do sketches like the above one on a regular basis to post. We’ll see. **

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Guitar learning standstill

June 16, 2010

I have a guitar. I’ve had it since January. It’s a decent thing, and I picked it up cheaper than I should have.

It is now June, and I still have no idea what I’m doing. I had been attempting to learn using the internet and other resources around me, but I’m too lazy without something pushing me. I have some motivation, but without some sort of deadline I always say I’ll practice later.

So my plan now is to enquire about a teacher. I think with a guiding hand from someone with experience, in a face-to-face setting, I will be able to learn what I need to operate and learn independently with the motivation I can only gain from having a proper foundation and base-level skills.

So yeah.

-Vyperchild